Without change something sleeps inside us, and seldom awakens.
The sleeper must awaken. - Dune
I did a thing. I haven’t written in a while because I stopped doing all the things. I stopped taking pictures. I stopped writing. I just stopped.
I told myself it was because I was moving. I told myself it was because work was too busy. I told myself it didn’t matter.
It matters. I lied to myself because the truth is I fear change. Yet, change is also what I crave and desire the most.
Physically, I need to change otherwise I will die at an early age.
Financially, I need to change otherwise I will be working until I die.
Spiritually, I need to change otherwise I will be of no use to anyone on this planet.
So, I’m back at it doing the things.
On Tuesday, I took some portraits of some friends. The pictures turned out ok, but I know I can do better. I have a plan to do it again this Tuesday.
Wednesday, I joined a gym and bought a personal trainer package. I also walked on the treadmill for 20 min.
Thursday, I kept that trainer appointment and worked out harder than I have in years.
Friday, I went to the gym again. I even uploaded a clip of my workout summary to my YouTube channel as a way to be accountable to myself. I also went downtown and experimented doing night time photography with a couple of friends. I learned a lot and will be going back to try again to see if I can create what I see in my mind.
And today? Today I’m writing this and planning out my November budget. I also will be reviewing all my photos from this week to see if any of them are good enough to submit for a photo review by Steve Carty, my mentor and friend.
A week of doing the all the things.
The challenge is to do the thing tomorrow. To not focus on how much needs to change, but to only focus on doing the thing. I can’t do everything, but I can do a thing.
So this is me telling myself,
just do the thing.
Then do the thing again, and again, and again.




Love this so much Natalie!!!
Glad you made it back. Cheering you on.